This section was hard to understand; I believe that I am confused as to the definition of the word commend, as Paul writes, “Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great enurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses…in purity, understanding, patience and kindness…” (2nd Corinthians 6:4-6). While commend is a common word, I can’t think of any definition that would apply…I’m sure that it doesn’t (in this context) mean to praise, or to entrust…but from what I can understand, despite the word commend, is that we should hold our heads high and trust God in all circumstances. Once again, Clarisa’s quote “facing fear, trusting God” comes to my mind. It’s taking me a long time to trust God. Sometimes I think I do more doubting. However, throughout the past school years, and now, facing uncertainty with this whole “growing up” business, I feel that it is easier to trust God, because I feel that beyond what I can control, which is very little compared to the grand scheme of things, it’s a very hopeless situation and feeling without believing that an awesome, power, yet caring and kind God has your back.
Verses 11-13 talk about opening your heart. Paul writes: “We have speken freely to you…and opened wide our hearts to you. We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us. As a fair exchange…open wide your hearts also.” Religion is something that I find tremendously hard to talk about. I’m surprised I even started writing about it. While talking about this subject I often find myself angry, confused, bewildered, near tears, or something of the sort. I hate it when people put me on the spot about faith; it’s something I’m never prepared to talk about at the snap of a finger. But, in light of what Paul has written, so many people have opened their hearts, widely and welcoming, to me. This is despite the fact that I appear to be a reserved old grouch (which is really just a way to avoid me having to talk). To be fair, I suppose I should stop appearing to be an old grouch.
Have a wonderful day!